There's nothing cheap about loyalty

Why are we loyal?
Why are we loyal when we know it isn't deserved?
What is the price of your loyalty?
Does it cost more for those who do not deserve, but can still afford it?
Is it still loyalty if there are pre-determined lines and limits to the affinity?

I watch people slave away for the idea regardless of who is actually holding the whip. Add that to the new concept of "Keeping your job is the new raise." And I really wonder what they are slaving away for...the hope of building something better of the fear of not being able to maintain what they have already built.

I am no different. Despite my best efforts I still find myself bending over backwards for people who probably don't deserve it. I am starting to wonder if I am short selling my loyalty. But at the same time I feel so guilty when I don't give it. So what have the big anonymous "They" done to make me feel so beholden to them?

Needless to say, I am struggling.

A New Yorker that doesn't take the subway is a New Yorker you can't trust.

I think I have mentioned this before, but my cousin has put a lot of work into this beautiful boat. It is a 1967 Hydroswift and Jessie has got it running like a dream. He invited the whole extended family to lake last weekend so we could all give it a go. I loved it! It is so much fun to go out on the lake.

But I'll be the first to tell you, I'm just along for the ride. Why is that so hard for everyone to understand? Everybody wants to know why I didn't bring a swimsuit, why don't want to try water-skiing or go swim with the kids on the beach. And the answer is I don't want to. I am happy just hanging out, I don't have to "do" every second to make the outing worthwhile. But more than that, I really am there for the ride. Thats what I get a kick out of, not all the over stuff. So please just let me enjoy the ride on the lake, the spray, the waves, let me take from it what I enjoy the most.

On a side note, isn't that kid so gosh darn cute.

A good smile works just as well, plus you never have to worry that your mustache is on straight.

I thought it would be fun to attempt false eyelashes. They are pretty inexpensive, and I thought it might be an okay weekend look.

I was wrong. It was kind of a disaster. As a matter of fact it failed so miserably you don't even get to see me with them on. You just get to see them after I pulled them off. Maybe I will try again, maybe not...but at least I can say I tried.

Forgetful

Oh yeah. I forgot to mention if anyone wants to add me to one of their circles on Google+ the email address is elusiveblue@gmail.com.

I have added some new work to my online folio that you can check out at www.amberlynmeier.com

And if anyone is interested in seeing Harry Potter this weekend I am planning on a Saturday night or sunday afternoon show. Hit me up if you wanna go.

They didn't cover the runway walk at Quantico, but I think I can handle it Mr. Stachmo.

Google+:
The weekend started out great! Steph gave me an invite to Google+, which I am super excited it about. The one draw back it has right now is that I don't know that many people who are using it. So my circles are "lonely" as zefrank calls it, but I have had a good time exploring and updating. I have even put it on my phone. I really want to give huddle and hangouts a try.

Parade of Homes
I was able to hit 10 homes today. None of them were really extremely impressive. That being said there were some awesome elements in each of them. Like the bathroom that was tiled floor to ceiling so it could be 100%. Seriously, I am talking like a 10x10 room with a drain in the center, a toilet, a sink, a tub, and a shower with no door, walls, curtains or anything. It was a 10x10 shower with other stuff in it.  This year there was a lot of translucent tile with color in the back so it had a dimensional look to it. All the homes seemed to be small this year too. I was a little disappointed.

Family Gathering and Fireworks
My family was finally able to get together and do June Birthdays/4th of July barbecue. And it is only the 2nd week of July. I don't know if it's me or if it's them but the fam is driving me crazy lately. But the more I think about it, the more I think it has got to be me...because they aren't the only ones making me crazy there are a couple of other people I could add to that list and they can't all have gone nuts at once...but does that mean I'm nuts?

Okay, its late and the later I stay up the more pissed I am getting over shit I haven't even written about here...it is time for bed...