Life Support Failure

Sometimes we forget how dependent we are on one another for survival. There is really no such thing as a self contained life, but that doesn't seem to stop people from trying. I want so badly not to be affected by other people, but that want doesn't seem to change the fact that I am.

I am just afraid that perhaps I am being hypersensitive.
How do I complain without feeling selfish or petty?

So where do I start? I am taking a film class in school this semester, and there is a local film festival this week. I am required to see a film at the festival for this class. When I learned this I asked a friend of mine to go with me. She said alright, but I couldn't find a movie that wasn't sold out that fit both of our schedules. So I told her I was off the hook. Then I found out there was a Door Wait List for sold out movies, so I asked her if she would go wait in line with me to see a movie, on a day we both have off. She told me no. It was flat out, plain and simple, no. She didn't even make an excuse, she just said she wouldn't do it. So I was a little upset about that. So I guess I am going out by myself next week.

Then to boot at the end of the night we were leaving the restaurant, the party I was with exited. There was a party of guys right behind us. So I held the door open for them. I got a couple of smiles and thank yous. I let go of the door and started to catch up to my party. My friend (girl-the one from above) turned around and said "Oh, my books!" I held them up to show her I had them. She smiled and said loud enough for everyone (the guys I held the doors open for) to hear, "Oh, that's the reason I married you!" I cringed inside. I can't believe she said that. I just wanted to duck my head and run. Jokes like that use to be funny but they are getting old, and between us was okay, but out loud in public is crossing the line. I have enough problems getting dates without that added drama.

So needless to say between this drama (and a couple other things I haven't talked about) I needed to talk to someone...get a little sympathy even...so I came home. I tried talking to another friend of mine about it, but she didn't seem interested. She kept changing the subject. And I knew she was playing a game, so she was silent for periods of time. So I just signed off.

So I am left feeling a little lonely. You'd think I would be use to it by now.