I have a lot to say, and I have been putting off saying it. First, I thought I would do my very first video post, but I haven't be been motivated yet. Then I thought I would do an audio post, but I really haven't been somewhere with a enough time to where I could, but I didn't want to write you a really long novel that you wouldn't read, but the longer I wait the more I have to say and the longer this gets. I just seem to procrastinate with everything. So anyway I just thought I would jot it all down before I feel like I don't have to.
VIDEO UPDATE (3/22)
If the page here seems to be taking a little longer than usual to load that is because I have added a video to my sidebar. It is my latest video assignment from Adv. Dig. Med. class. It was supposed to be a 'self-portrait.' It is about 9Mb and a little over three minutes long. The sound is a little annoying (it is suppose to be) so I have not set the video to auto start. Once you get to it, you have to actually click the play button to view it. I hope you enjoy. Leave me a note on the tagboard if you would like to give it a little crit.
CALENDAR UPDATE (3/22)
I have added a few things to my calendar...not many, but enough to make it look like I pretend to do something with my life. I want to go through add more of my class deadlines, I don't know if I am going to put my work schedule on there or not.
LOOKING FOR WORK (3/25)
I went to work yesterday and I showed up in a really good mood. I it was one of the few times that I was happy at work. Then I found something out. They have asked Em to try out for the assistant manager position (this is after also asking Kim to try for it, or should I say 2nd position). Now in the grand scheme of things I shouldn't be upset about this. Em is a great guy and he does deserve it, and Kim is pretty good as what she does, and I really have no want or desire to be an assistant manager. I hope that I am really not there for more than another year. But I am a little upset that they haven't asked me about the job. I do as good as either one of those guys and it has left me feeling really unappreciated. So I am a little upset. The last half of my shift was just horrible. It just dragged on and on. I think I am going to start looking for another job.
LEFT BEHIND (3/23)
I have been feeling a little left out lately. All of the seniors, are getting ready to graduate this semester. They are working on their portfolios and getting ready for the 100 show. And I just feel like I am being left behind. I just feel like I am more apart of the senior class than the class I am in. So it was a little depressing for me on Thursday to see them all working on their stuff, talking about what is going to happen next. I cried on the way home from school.
REPLACEMENT PEOPLE (3/24)
Have you ever seen the movie "Elizabethtown?" I know I have talked about this movie before when I talked about "being a connoisseur of last looks." Cameron Crowe is an amazing writer/director; I always feel like he is writing about my life when I watch his work. Well this time I am relating the being "replacement people." In the movie Kristen Dunst talked about how most of us are just "replacement" people; people who basically hold a place until the person you are waiting for comes around. Well what happens when that person does come around?
I have spent the last little while feeling like one of these people who has now been dropped 'cause they are no longer needed to hold a place. I was upset about it earlier, but I am getting over it. I just hate feeling like I have been dropped because something better came along. I guess, what in the end can you really do right? I just need to move on, and do my best to not let it bother me. I guess I will have to see if human nature will let me.
HANGING WITH MAT (3/21)
Oh My God!!! Tuesday was really good, for as shitty as it was. Even though I pulled an all nighter I got to spend like 5 hours with Mat(not really his name but that is what I am calling him). I was in the "Lounge" working on my self portrait assignment, and he was in there too. We talked some, and said something some. Like I said I had pulled an all nighter so I wasn't all together with it. But it was kind of nice. He is such a laid back guy and pretty cute too, but I am trying to not get infatuated. But it was a highlight none the less.
LAS VEGAS BABY (3/22)
I found out that the show (RENT) is moving from The Cashman to The Paris (Wahoo!) and it is only 4 days away til I hit the road. I need this vacation so bad...I am just going to lay back and let it happen. I don't want to worry about anything.
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