Think of it as a Kardashian. What it lacks in refinement it makes up for in cargo space.

I realized this weekend it has been 4 months since I wrote a post here. I wish I could say it was because I went out and found a life and just didn't have time for the "blog scene" any more, but that would be lying. Actually, I think the absolute opposite is true. I find it pretty safe to blame the utterly pathetic state of my life for my lack of blogging. It just isn't any fun to do this if you don't have anything exciting to write about, and it is even worse when everything you might want to write about ends up being a complaint, a gripe, an annoyance, a carte blanche bitchfest, or a worry about "this being the week they fire me." Therefore, no writing for me lately.

When it comes right down to it I have let work take over my life in an overly unhealthy way. If I am not working or sleeping, then I am prepping for work, thinking about work, or worrying about work. So even when I am not working, I am still working. And when I find myself with those few precious moments that work doesn't occupy I am so drained from all the other stuff that I waste them away doing nothing. Are you starting to see my sad state of affairs?

This is why I turned my 3 day holiday into a 4 day holiday. I took Friday off, which depending on who you talk to may or may not have been deserved, but it was very much needed. It would have been highly likely that if I had gone into work on Friday someone would have found me at my desk dead of a heart attack, stroke, or aneurysm. Yes, I have been that spun up lately.

So this weekend I spent some quality time with the family, did some major retail therapy, worked on a little pro bono project for my aunt, and never once looked at work, logged into work, checked up on work or thought about work. This has probably been the best 4 days of life. I can't ever remember feeling this relaxed.

So here I am trying to pull myself out of this funk. I have re-skinned my blog. Which is why I am up at 2am writing instead of sleeping. It is pretty graphic intensive at the moment and may need some tweaking. It doesn't load very well on Firefox 3.# browser (don't ask why I haven't upgraded I might scream). I am writing again, hopefully with semi-consistency. Maybe I will pull that goal list out, and give those a stab again - being that they have gone pretty much no where since I made the list, and as you can see I am trying to keep with the "White Collar" titles. It is tough though. That show is more witty banter between characters than it is snappy one-liners.

Oh yeah, and I have updated my print folio, and hope to get a couple of new projects added to www.amberlynmeier.com this week. I think I want to take a swing at some freelance work so if you know anyone in need of a good GD maybe send them my way.