Lack of Options

Okay, so...has anyone seen the movie Armageddon? There is a line from Bruce Willis to Liv Tyler about her dating Ben Affleck, it is something like,"He's the only one in your age bracket, Grace. That's not a choice, that's a lack of options." That is kind of how I am feeling right now. It has been two months since I have seen Company Man. It has been a month since I have talked to him. So I have turned my attentions else where...kind of...

I know I have mentioned Em before. When he first started at the job I thought that he was a really nice guy, pretty cute, so on an so forth, but I kind of put him out of my mind cause he is an RM (if you don't know what I am referring to just know it is kind of a culture clash thing). It isn't so much that I have a problem with RMs-they can be really nice, good guys-it usually doesn't even cross my mind-but RMs tend to have a problem with me. They have certain goals in life, and things they want to do, things that I cannot do...

Anyway...now Company Man is gone, I have turned my attentions to Em...and I can't help be feel that I have done this because there is really no one else for me to be interested in right now. I have been working with him more these last few weeks, so we have been talking more...sometimes really weird conversations like future plans and racism and things like that. So I don't know what to do...I am trying my best to resist the urge, I really don't need a repeat of the whole Company Man fiasco...

I find myself, yet again, lost...