I got a hard blow last week. I lost friend, and the world lost an amazing man. And just a few days shy of 30th birthday. I have been struggling with this loss for a number of reasons. None of which feel appropriate to share here. I think it might help to share but I can't. Part of it is because it isn't my story to tell. Throw in a fair amount of guilt and an equal part of heart ache and this just shuts my brain down, and makes my fingers stop working.
Part of me wants to pour it all out with the hope of being able to let go. The other part wants to keep it close, all bottled up, for fear losing even more. Even now things are fading.
It didn't seem right to not mention it.
Maybe someday I'll find it in me to elaborate on all of it.
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