Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Hypochondria-and my other mythical anxieties

(consider this my catch-up post, which means it will most likely be loooonnnng)

I got up today at 8:30am. I know that is nothing to fawn over, but it is something of an accomplishment for me. I was showered, dried, and dressed by 9:30...again nothing to get excited about, but for me it means the start of a productive day. It's now round about 10:30 (or close to anyway) and I have finished the last ActionScript 3.0 exercise in my Flash CS3 book (so I feel justified in taking a break for a few minutes and blog). Honestly, I still feel lost. Some the function/class talk seemed a little familiar (from the AS2 I learned ages ago) but all in all I was just typing what it said to, and it worked. I am still struggling on how I am going to apply it to my project(s). I have the AS3 Cookbook as well, so I guess, if worse comes to worse, I just copy code and hope it works the way I want it to.

So let me review the last couple of weeks. My last day of employment at a particular shoe store was 3/1/08(technically it was 2/29/08-but she didn't let me go until the end of the pay period).

...and on a complete non-sensical side note there is a DSW-that is Designer Shoe Warehouse-is Layton now. Practically across the street from the new FFW. Can I just say I am so excited on so many levels...

Today is now the 12th. That means I have been unemployed for 12 days. But in my defense I was in Mexico for 7 of them. That counts as vacation, so I feel justified in saying I have only been unemployed for 6 days. I was going to try to upload pictures and blog while I was on the boat. That didn't really happen because Net access was insanely expensive. I blew $50 for the two posts and the few pictures I uploaded. So over the next few days check flickr for more pictures and maybe a note or two describing them.

Mexico was amazing. Mazatlan was by far my most favorite port. We got to do a little bit of everything thing. We saw the beach, we did some shopping, we took a cab tour to see a few sites, we hung out at a local restaurant. Puerto Vallarta was a nice port as well, it wasn't as much fun as Mazatlan though...all we really did in PV was shop (and see the Cathedral) Cabo San Lucas (or Los Cabos-didn't get it but okay), was really just a resort town. There wasn't a whole lot to see. Plus we only got a half a day there. Cabo was by far my least favorite.

The boat experience was exceptional. I had food that I would have never otherwise tried (or would be able to afford), dining in elegant dining rooms with strangers wore on my nerves a little bit. There was always something to do: a game being played, some party or show to go to, someone playing music on some stage somewhere. I spent a lot of time just hanging out in one of the lounges. I did a little reading, a lot of people watching, and a moderate about of drinking.

We got off the boat early on the 8th, but our flight wasn't until late. So we got a limo at the airport and drove around LA for a bit. I got to see Beverly Hills, Rodeo Dr., Hollywood Walk of Fame, Grauman's Chinese Theatre, and the Kodak Theatre. We also got to look at a lot of big houses, huge even by "our" standards. It was Saturday so it was extra busy everywhere, but it was still fun to see.

Coming back to reality though, my life is in a bit of an upheaval, yes it is my own doing-so I am refraining from whining too much. I thought I was going to have insurance through the month of March, but I do not. My benefits end the day I stop working. So I had a dentist appointment next week that I had to cancel (it was just a cleaning, but still). And it isn't like I haven't gone without insurance for years previous, but I all the sudden seem to be finding things wrong with me. Take for instance these marks on my arms. It looks like someone grabbed me hard; they look like finger marks, and they seem to be getting worse. And I can't seem to lose this swimming feeling in my head. My first couple of days on the boat I had no balance, and since I have been home I have had the same feeling. I can't seem to shake it. It is almost a light headedness that won't go away. I am blaming stress, but I can't help but have this worry, that something is seriously wrong with me, and I can't afford to have it fixed. And before you mention it, I am not going to pay out the ass for COBRA for my imaginary problems.

Okay, I am wasted enough time and battery juice on this stuff. Time to go back to work.

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