Case of Fear

I have avoided writing about this for a number of reasons, but I think despite the pang in my stomach, I am going to jot a quick line about it.

So about two weeks ago I felt I was given reason to believe that I would be out of a job soon. To put a finer point on it I felt there certain facts stating that today would very likely be my last day.

So I have spent the last two weeks trying to prove that I am indispensable. I have also spent the last two weeks worrying about losing my job. I have been sick to my stomach. My face is broken out. And I have been rather irritable.

Today has come and gone, and there hasn't been so much as a hint that I, or anyone else, would have to be let go. It was a huge relief. Now I am very aware the the economy is iffy at best, and this doesn't mean that I am out of the woods. But I don't want to worry like this for another two weeks, months, years, etc. If it happens I will be hurt, upset and sad, but I am tired of waiting for it to happen.